Absolute Torture....why?

Today is a Wednesday which means it's the first of my double cleanse days this week. I was very tired in general today so much so that I took a nap during my lunch break....in my car....

My roommate's mom and 2 aunt's are in town visiting (they arrived today) and my roommate wanted me to socialize with them at dinner. I told her I couldn't eat as it was a cleanse day but unfortunately with me most likely going out of town this weekend --- my only choice was tonight or tomorrow. I figured tonight would be the lesser of two evils if I had to sit in a restaurant and not eat....trying to do that at the end of my 2nd cleanse day would be more than I could bare.

So I arrived home tonight and I had tried to build myself up for the challenge that I knew was going to be ahead. Where does she pick for a restaurant? Chuy's. Damn. Mexican Food. My favorite. Plus there are chips and salsa on the table from the start of the meal. Not easy to pass up. So we went....and I knew it was going to be difficult right from the beginning....but I went anyways because I try to be a good roommate. My roommate's family doesnt come into town very often and I didn't want to be rude.

We sat down and as soon as the chips were on the table I knew I was in for pure hell. It was torture to sit there while they ate chips and salsa ---- and then it got worse when my roommate ordered the creamy jalapeno dip. It's my favorite. Ugh.

I somehow made it through the meal without killing anyone at my table. Or the waitress who asked me at three different times if I wanted to order anything....NO. I dont need mexican food. Geez....how hard is that to understand? I know it's her job to make sure that we spend money in the restaurant but I said no. I wasn't rude. I may sound rude here....but I was actually overly pleasant in my responses to her. lol.

Finally my roommate was complaining about how full she was and she was going to get up and go for a walk and wait for everyone outside. This was my cue to be able to leave the chips & salsa behind and get outside.

It was pure hell and I'm sure I didn't make for good company as I didnt say much....because naturally all you want to talk about at a restaurant is "how good is your meal" --- and that wasn't a conversation I wanted to have. I know their food was delicious --- it's Chuy's. I spent most of the dinner on my blackberry chatting with my ex-roommate Steph who was trying to distract me from the smell of the chips & salsa.

Mental Note to self: do not ever agree to go to a mexican restaurant on a cleanse day. For any reason. Period.

Food Today:
None - Cleanse Day

Weight Today: 205 lbs (same as yesterday)

Cleanse Days

So Wednesday & Thursday of each week are my cleanse days. No food - just cleanse drinks. No, I'm not starving myself. The cleanse drinks are packed with all the nutrients that my body needs to function.

So no food yesterday or today. I'm in Houston visiting the family. It never fails that I end up having to be around food on cleanse days --- which is hard. Today I went and visited my mom's office during the lunch hour and sat with her and her co-workers while they had lunch. Maybe i'm trying to torture myself ---- or maybe i'm trying to prove to myself that I have the will power to do this.

The cleanse days always make me feel better. I have more energy and I love the way I feel after a double cleanse.

Food Today:
None. 3-4 cleanse drinks. 6 chocolate wafers (to keep blood sugar good).

Weight: 202 lbs (down 2lbs from yesterday)